Wednesday, September 24, 2014

You are a gift.

  
UNION; The Courier Journals, 1861~1865 


    Over the past five years, you and I have developed a remarkable relationship; we are not numbers or transactions in this world; we are high above the bottom line. We are a gift, given back and forth at every moment, and I cherish you, each and all, my friends, my family, and my imaginary friends that I may never meet. The lift you have given me for these five years on this blog is beyond measure. 


    I have just converted my novella, UNION, to a .pdf file, and offer it to you as a gift of gratitude, and trust you to share it, pay forward to anyone else, or contribute what you think is a fair value for the work, as you see fit.   You may download the file on the left sidebar. The file can be uploaded to a Kindle or other device. If you would like me to email it directly to your Kindle, let me know, and we can try that. 


Now, let's see what you and I can create in the next five years.


Monday, May 19, 2014

Blog Tour

I was recently invited by my friend, Kathryn Dyche Dechairo, to participate in a blog tour to introduce and highlight creative blogs through a few questions on the writing and creative process. You can visit Kathryn's blog at http://dychedesigns.blogspot.com/



Kathryn is a  
multi-talented artist, photographer, and poet living in South Ohio. Kathryn's work has been published in The Pulse of Mixed Media, Artful Blogging 2012, Poetry Nook Vol 3 with her debut collection of poetry and prose 'The Edge of Silence' now available.




Thanks to Kathryn for the honor, and here are my answers to a few questions. If anyone has other questions, leave a comment, and I'd be happy to answer.

The creative process

I no longer think too much about my own creative process. When I was a trompe-l'œil oil painter, I set so many rules for the reality of my finished paintings, that the entire process lost its joy. Still, it's insightful to examine the how and why of your art occasionally to assure that the creation is true to the heart. A true heart is a luxury in this life, and mine was a gift from the saint in my story, my dearest Marianna.

American artist, Ben Shahn wrote, "An amateur is someone who supports himself with outside jobs which enable him to paint. A professional is someone whose wife works to enable him to paint." Marianna works long hours, so I can create with a true heart, and that is a love, hard to find in a lifetime.



Why do you write what you do?

I clearly remember being twelve years old, often sitting alone in the forest, wondering how something as impossible as life could exist. It was, at equal turns, frightening and wondrous, a complex, circling dance between reality and illusions, between demons and dreams. Everything I ever created, as an artist or writer, was to find the essence of my own place in that dance, and our collective choreography as partners, barefoot and tiptoe, in that ineffable beauty. I create simply to stop the motion at the center, to capture one memory of this neverending moment.  I have nothing to teach, nothing to preach; I write about the wonder of it all, the oneness of me, you, and the waltz of this whirling world.

You breathe out
and I breathe in;
where you leave off
and I begin,
I cannot say.
Where you leave off
and God begins,
I cannot say.


How does your writing process work?

As a writer, I have an undisciplined process, although I’m working harder this year to discard the demons and addictions that have cut me to the core over the past several years; I cannot be creative without clear thinking, and I have not kept clear focus on my task. The distractions of the sideshow waste time for many artists and writers, so I try to ignore the carnival barkers behind those curtains; the main show has no curtain, no secrets. The main show is where the art is starting.

I keep scratch paper and notebooks in every room and in the Jeep. I watch for life’s seemingly insignificant detail; I watch, ready for wonder, ready for one word, or two, and once they appear, I repeat them until they pick up another word to become a sentence. I sing that simple sentence, repeating it aloud and shaping it, stretching it to find its rhythm and adding the music of like-minded words. Editing is my favorite part of the process, taking a paragraph and playing it over and over, filling in detail and layers, until it sounds timeless, like an ancient story, which it is.

I’m always open to write, but my best time is predawn on the side roads, away from the babble and chatter of the cities. I go out into the soft silence of the waking world, and listen to its voice. If a word doesn't appear, I will start with the word “HERE,” and describe that moment, its sounds, its lights, its movement in the dance. Most of the time the word HERE is edited out as the rhythm works its way around, but occasionally, it remains, as in this passage:

All the day, at every hour, the travelers wish, and worry; each with equal effect. Here, near the seven mile marker on a hundred mile rail, built on bridges above the rivers, I work one task at a time to quiet my mind, and watch the wonder of this world, all the day, at every hour.


All the Day
a composite photograph by Michael Douglas Jones

What are you working on?

T.S. Eliot
LITTLE GIDDING (No. 4 of 'Four Quartets')
We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.

Let’s go back to the start. After high school, I couldn't afford to go straight on to college.  I enlisted in the Air Force during the thick of the Vietnam War, not as a patriotic calling, but to have more choice in my destination.  In 1968, any teenager that didn't go to college was likely to be drafted into the Army. For four years, I trained and worked as an illustrator in the Air Force, and then, returned to Maryland to study illustration in college, with the help of the GI Bill.

Looking back over five decades, all of my art was an illustration of a story. I rarely started a painting with a sketch; they started with my words. I thought of them as artist’s notes, sometimes a poem or paragraph, sometimes several pages of symbolism and reference.  The notes were abandoned once the final painting was complete. It wasn't until 2001, in my first mixed media show, Eggs in Envelopes, that I thought to include the words in my art.

 Eggs In Envelopes; The First Day
mixed media by Michael Douglas Jones


Slowly, the words have replaced their illustration, standing alone without the picture, open to the reader to see the image without illustration. This was a huge revelation to me that a word is worth a thousand pictures. It took quite a while to realize that writing was as important, to me, as drawing or painting, and I still hesitate to post prose or poetry without an image, but I'm on my way.

I am working on a new book, Written Receipts for Paid Attention.  I still intend to make images for that book, but the images are now background to the words.

I am also working on an art exhibit, The Seeder Suitcases.  As usual, I have pages of artist notes that will transform into images.



I have invited two of my favorite writers to answer these questions. Please visit them, as they will be posting their answers next week, Monday, May 26, 2014. They are passionate writers, who are unafraid to go into the darkness of the past to shine a lantern, that we all shall see light.



Jason Benoit is just a small town girl, livin’ in a lonely world. Everywhere he goes weather seems to follow. He writes, and he reads; he loves, and he leaves. He drinks whiskey from a glass, and wine from a bottle. He whispers to the walls and listens to the hushed tick, tick, tick of his keyboard as he waits for a response, and thankfully, he has yet to hear one.

You can find his words on his blog, Love Letters & Suicide Notes. And he can also be found on twitter here: @Mr_Bob_Gray



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C. Streetlights
 Of all the fools I've met, I admire Don Quixote most of all.  If only because it is from him I’ve learned that it doesn’t matter that the dragon turned out to be only a windmill.  What matters is that the dragon was fought at all.

C. Streetlights, fighting windmills and dragons since she could tell the difference between the two and could give a damn.


Monday, December 16, 2013

Full Measure

#reverb13 Day 16: Habits and addictions

Step and Stumble


Kat McNally writes, "Today's post and image come from master wordsmith and craft beer connoisseur, Michael Douglas Jones. How Michael manages to make 140 characters come alive with all the glory and agony that it is to be human remains a mystery to me... you'll just have to follow him on twitter to see what I mean."

Michael writes:

Habits and addictions, some are silly, some serious; when we have issues without answers, they can hold us so tight that we stop moving forward with the life we intended.


Were you able to loosen those fetters this year, and if you were successful, how did you manage it? Did you accept outside help, or work alone?


If you still feel that grasp of addiction or hurtful habits, what will you do differently in the year to come?


I am working on this life; a step and a stumble. The steps are small; the stumbles seem to fall forever. I find that I have followed the footsteps of my father, with his fears and failures, his escapes into excess, until his way has become my own. I have written his words into my book, and recite them often, forgetting my own poetry. My weakness is well known; I walk between two worlds, one of anger and frustration, the other of limitless love. It matters not whether he wrote me this way or I cut my own quill; I can set my full measure in only one world, where I am the writer, the annalist of wonder; one world where I scrape my father’s ink from the parchment, where, even though the trace remains, my word is the last line on the palimpsest.

Oh Pensée, you are the saint in my story, protecting me from the other man I am. If you believe in me, write your words in my book, and it will hold me through to the final page.  



Saturday, December 14, 2013

I Ride the Side Roads

#reverb13 Day 14: Decisions

What was the best decision you made in 2013?
This is why I ride the side roads.
 Sunrise on Friday, December 13 on Price's distillery road, near the burnt hill road.


 This year, one of my best decisions was to change my Jeep's GPS navigation setting to "avoid highways". This may seem trivial, yet it has made such a difference in my day; I have slowed down, and found such treasures off the interstate that have immensely inspired my creative life. Try it for a week; life is not about how fast we can get to the end of the road.





 In summer, I ride the side roads, beyond the babble and chatter of the cobblestone cities, not within earshot of their rain parade. My fanfare is a forecast of crows, and the salutation of crickets. I am poor of pocket, and still I sit front row for the full thunder moon, eastern toad, grey tree frog, firefly, and cicada.

 In winter, I walk the same roads, slower than in other seasons, as the verglas trees caution me to be steady in my step. Unaccustomed to travelers, the whitetail deer, the barred owl, and the redtail hawk do not fear me; they stand straight and sentient in my presence, as we are, each and all, equal.










Saturday, December 7, 2013

Selfie



#reverb13 Day 7: Reveal yourself. “Selfie” was selected as 2013 Oxford word of the year; post your favorite picture of yourself from 2013.


I haven't taken a selfie in 30 years, and I thought I was so "hep to the young crowd" trends. I've looked back over this year and only find a couple pictures of me, none of them a selfie. I’ll do my best to get with the trend next year, but for now, here are the two photographs taken of me this year, and some selfies from the 80s, when we were still using film. Those photographs are from a period when I was painting selfie portraits.



This year, on Grace Street at Easter,
 and on Federal Hill at Thanksgiving, with some of my favorite girls.






 Selfies before selfies were all that.

Friday, December 6, 2013

Small Moments



#reverb13 Day 6:  simple moments, memories
Which memories from this year do you wish to keep with you always?

Four bluebird chicks waiting. August 2013


Every day this year, small moments caught my attention, so I would write a note to remember. Here are some of those moments of ordinary magic.

Storms, May 11, 2013

After the blue flame and thunder of the eastward storms, in the valley branch, an unseen symphony of spring peepers, toads, and tree frogs rises, reaching me. This is our song; this is our dance, our romance.

Last Day of May, May 31

The old mare moves slowly up the corduroy road on the last day of May; a hot afternoon. Her pace is just enough to lift a breeze above the dust, and her hooves on the wood, a lullaby rhythm. High to the west, is the sugarloaf mountain, but, closer, I catch sight of a young groundhog standing in the new corn, both only two hands high; both searching the sky for a taste of rain. The old mare knows the high clouds have none, and she waits for a drink from Bennett's creek. Along the east side of the road, honeysuckle blooms on the remnants of a split rail, a brief kiss from a childhood sweetheart, and I dream in the afternoon of a brown-eyed Susan, while the old mare moves slowly up the corduroy road.



Summer Solstice, June 21

Summer's twilight fireflies ease into life’s bright fire, and fade away, like shooting stars, like you, and like me.



Perigee Moon, June 22

Milk glass sky, its curtain of clouds, wispy white, twilight, moving stage right for the star of the evening; perigee moon. Firefly ushers, with soft light, show us to our seats, while passerines pair up in birdsong, the opening act. Perigee, her dance of veils behind the locust tree; each veil drops; the black, the gold, the blue, the silver, as the artist pours an ale. Oh, Pensée; he is waiting for epiphany; perigee moon.



Gambol & Glow, August 11

 Behind the tall pines, just above the horizon, the summer sun sets low, and the glow begins on the wings of tiny insects and gamboling fairies that are invisible, but for that sunlit moment, they dance for us all.



Circle Dance, August 16

In all the six directions, the unseen symphony surrounds, and I am the still center; my circling partner, the dancing gibbous moon.


Quiet as a cloud, October 17

In the veiled light of predawn, we ride the side roads, south toward the Monocacy river bridge, past the cornfield and Queen Anne’s lace, into the fog façade, the grey above green, a watercolor wash atop the cover crops, as quiet as a cloud.


Taking to air, once more, October 18

Dry fallen leaves lift and spin, soaring in an autumn afternoon wind funnel on the old oaks road; a precise impersonation of the swirling murmuration of starlings; one last caprice before winter rest.


Rain Wet Morning, November 1

In late October, when the corn comes down, the farmer’s son, with the combine’s cut, kicks up corndust clouds that cover the old oaks and the naive sapling, dappling the autumn reds in camouflage and khaki, until November arrives, with her predawn storm to rinse and shake the rain wet morning. The farmer’s ancient mother hangs leaf laundry to dry; fresh color for this new day.



Thursday, December 5, 2013

Risk Aversion

#reverb13 Day 5: What was the greatest risk you took in 2013? 
1965. Follow the Leader.
 I'm on the right; no way I’m going higher up that deadfallen tree.




The Walter Mitty in me drives a Jeep Wrangler, while wearing an LL Bean henley, jeans, and Lucchese boots, but I am the definition of risk aversion; I cannot swim, I abhor heights, I’m agoraphobic, and don’t even get me started on angora sweaters. I love the outdoors, but have never slept in a tent, and never will. Each of my three brothers has built a racecar; I only know where to pump the gasoline. As a teenager in Air Force boot camp, with an M-16, I hit the target 96 out of 100 shots, but did not tell the drill sergeant that I dropped four of my shells, and they rolled down the embankment. My idea of a risk is creating a portmanteau, and I’m taking a risk that you will still believe my true stories when these secrets are out.